Do You Binge?

If you read my last post about being hard on yourself
and the battle I had, and still have to some extent.

You won’t be surprised if I tell you,
I’ve had an eating disorder!

From the occasional binging on chocolate to excessive force-feeding.
I can fully appreciate how destructive eating disorders
and the Binge-ing mentality can become.

When we get down to it,
what we are talking about here is this whole cycle
of Excessive behavior followed by guilt.
Which in my view is a disorder!

I can easily sit down and eat 300grams of Green & Blacks Chocolate,
I once mashed up 20 hard boiled eggs and a pile of potatoes
and sat down watching films until I ate the lot.

Let’s not discuss the gas-producing effects of that lot!!!

More alarming I would force feed myself porridge
until I was sick, hold it in my mouth and then gulp it back down again.
Also quite often I would have to kneel on all fours
because I’d eaten too much.
Kneeling would relieve the stomach pain of being too full.

( Consider that my “Qualification” to talking about this! )
Extreme right!!!!!!!

Is it really,
not when you compare the “Fitness Competitors.”
that eat a whole jar of Nutella, ( which is just refined sugar and palm oil )
And then go on some depressed “Exercise Binge.”
which you very rarely we get to see or hear about.
Because they are too busy sharing all the best bits of their life.

Hearing about my past you could be thinking;
I was a bit off center,
slightly unhinged,
or plain and simply “A Bit Special!”

But that would be an unhelpful way of looking at it,
to say the least.

I get why people develop eating disorders.
Food Binges are an eating disorder,
or at least, they could lead to them!

Why do I share this stuff with you?
Because it’s important for and to me to be open and honest.

I realize my experiences are quite common,
lots of people following similar patterns. The health and fitness industry is. What they don’t realize is they are encouraging unhealthy behavior.

Which is a shame, when you consider,
So many more people could be achieving their version of balance, happiness, and health. But instead, they are restricted by comparing themselves to unrealized touched up bodies and engineered lifestyles.

On conclusion
The things I know from experience, and by the way, I do agree both my personal and professional experience,
may or may not help you.
That’s why I interview people that want to work with to see if we do make a good match, however, that’s a different story.

But when you set goals based on what you perceive, basically what someone else is or has.
You set yourself up for a possible fall.

There is no way you can imitate them without losing yourself.
You have different resources,
Different pressures,
Different metabolism,
You also have different nutritional and recuperation needs.

So be my guest to put all that pressure on yourself,
But the consequences could be the same as they were for me,
Binge eating, body dysmorphia, and low self-esteem.

I hope you see the light in a lot less time than I did.